My personality is so annoying. When someone does or says something that goes against God’s word (Christian or not), i absolutely cannot put it down until I confront that person, and sometimes, that comes in un-thought-out and blunt ways. So i create confrontation. But then i can’t handle the tension that the confrontation brought and end up apologizing until it’s smoothed over, so i can get my heart rate back to normal and my eyes dry. I absolutely cannot deal with confrontation. My mind gets fuzzy, I cry loudly, I lose my appetite, I get sick, my heart races… until it’s smoothed over. So why then, do i have a strong pull to confront people about things?! Ridiculous.

I am learning to stop, breathe, and come up with more effective and ’softer’ ways of confronting people, but then i still end up almost immediately apologizing for the possible offense of bringing it up. What am I supposed to do?

Paul seemed to struggle with this. How timely that just yesterday I read this scripture in 2 Cor. 7:8
“I am not sorry that I sent that severe letter to you, though I was sorry at first, for I know it was painful to you for a little while. ⁹ Now I am glad I sent it, not because it hurt you, but because the pain caused you to repent and change your ways.”

One thing i have learned is that being blunt doesn’t work. While the message may be true, the method of delivery drives people away, builds walls of defense and resentment, and most certainly does not change behavior or open people’s eyes to what you want them to see.

Why couldn’t i get Exhorter, or Merciful, or Administration, or something where confrontation wasn’t a constant issue.

God, redeem me. Give me patience and understanding on how to deal with the personality you’ve given me. Give me insight to know how best to handle situations, opinions. Help me know when to just ‘let it go’ and then you have to really help me let it go. I want to serve your kingdom, but need guidance. Thank you for who you have made me to be, and now help me be who you want me to be.